a FOURTH post?!?!

yepz, so today i have decided to post on this blog thing again! gasp, i kno. hm.. well a lot has changed since i last blogged, seeing as it was like i don't even kno how long ago.. im going to assume it was like mid-september..

well nothing rly THAT great has happened. altho i have been considerably happy ^^
a big source of this happiness has to do with relationship stuff.. i'll spare u the details but if u wanna find out more u can always holla. =P but ya.. skool's also been suprisingly chill, i'm gettin by.. BUT i have gotten sum sorta revelation thing.. it was like last night or sumthin but i think ima try and challenge myself in terms of skool stuff! cuz i wanna see if i can actually get gud marks and stop givin myself excuses.. so yep.. that just about wraps up non-spiritual stuff.

mm.. so as most ppl kno.. i am a cgl for the awesome cell group awkward transforming turtles. and ya, recently it's occured to me that this is such a great responsibility and i rly dunno if im up for the challenge. i feel like im kinda hypocritical sumtimes in that i tell cell group ppl wut they shud do and stuff yet i never seem to be able to do it myself. like for example last last friday as i was driving home from cgo, (being the great driver i CLEARLY am) i hit a parked car as im reversin out of the drive way. bein the responsible cgo i am i quickly drive away hopin nobody saw me. my cell group peepz that im driving home are just like 'o it's ok' but reflecting back on the situation it rly wasn't ok, far from it. not only did i commit a criminal offence, i also set a phenomenal example for my cell group members. thankfully, i did end up going back and leaving my number. but ya, thats just an example of how gud of a job im doin as cgl. so ya, i just feel like i rly need to step it up and rly commit myself to my cell group. making sure that their experience as a turtle will be one of growth, growth in their relationships with each other as a group as well as growth in their walks with God.

i've felt a similar responsibility with skool friends. i just feel that as the only Christian of the group, it is my responsibility to at least make sure that my friend have HEARD the word of God. as emily put it, i can be the sower but i don't necessarily need to be the reaper. so ya, feel like i need to put more into tryin to reach out to skool friends. cuz i feel that at this point of my life, God is calling me to be missional within skool. to spread God's love to all them nerds 8)

mm.. that about sums stuff up.. im just hopin to be transformed by God's word as i try and read the bible more now. and ya, just to live out wut i learn, to practise wut i preach. and ya, just need the holy spirit to come and move me. allowing God to rly take control and showing me where to go. so ya, this last paragraph is stuff u can pray for me! ^^

-brian