a FOURTH post?!?!

yepz, so today i have decided to post on this blog thing again! gasp, i kno. hm.. well a lot has changed since i last blogged, seeing as it was like i don't even kno how long ago.. im going to assume it was like mid-september..

well nothing rly THAT great has happened. altho i have been considerably happy ^^
a big source of this happiness has to do with relationship stuff.. i'll spare u the details but if u wanna find out more u can always holla. =P but ya.. skool's also been suprisingly chill, i'm gettin by.. BUT i have gotten sum sorta revelation thing.. it was like last night or sumthin but i think ima try and challenge myself in terms of skool stuff! cuz i wanna see if i can actually get gud marks and stop givin myself excuses.. so yep.. that just about wraps up non-spiritual stuff.

mm.. so as most ppl kno.. i am a cgl for the awesome cell group awkward transforming turtles. and ya, recently it's occured to me that this is such a great responsibility and i rly dunno if im up for the challenge. i feel like im kinda hypocritical sumtimes in that i tell cell group ppl wut they shud do and stuff yet i never seem to be able to do it myself. like for example last last friday as i was driving home from cgo, (being the great driver i CLEARLY am) i hit a parked car as im reversin out of the drive way. bein the responsible cgo i am i quickly drive away hopin nobody saw me. my cell group peepz that im driving home are just like 'o it's ok' but reflecting back on the situation it rly wasn't ok, far from it. not only did i commit a criminal offence, i also set a phenomenal example for my cell group members. thankfully, i did end up going back and leaving my number. but ya, thats just an example of how gud of a job im doin as cgl. so ya, i just feel like i rly need to step it up and rly commit myself to my cell group. making sure that their experience as a turtle will be one of growth, growth in their relationships with each other as a group as well as growth in their walks with God.

i've felt a similar responsibility with skool friends. i just feel that as the only Christian of the group, it is my responsibility to at least make sure that my friend have HEARD the word of God. as emily put it, i can be the sower but i don't necessarily need to be the reaper. so ya, feel like i need to put more into tryin to reach out to skool friends. cuz i feel that at this point of my life, God is calling me to be missional within skool. to spread God's love to all them nerds 8)

mm.. that about sums stuff up.. im just hopin to be transformed by God's word as i try and read the bible more now. and ya, just to live out wut i learn, to practise wut i preach. and ya, just need the holy spirit to come and move me. allowing God to rly take control and showing me where to go. so ya, this last paragraph is stuff u can pray for me! ^^

-brian

time is tickin, t-time is tickin away

so, if u guys didn't realize it already. this title of this post is a line from the HIT song 'one - epik high' and i guess it'll be serving a dual purpose today.
firstly, the name of the actual song 'one' The definition of one i'm gonna be talkin about is unity. the one-ness of a family, or of a group of friends, OR a fellowship?! yes so wut got me thinkin about this is Mark 3:24 and 25.

If a kingdon is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand.
If a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand.
Mark 3:24-25

Taken in the context of unity within a fellowhip, if a fellowship is divided against itself how can it grow? how can we expect didomi to grow without unity? NOT saying that i think we're not unified as a fellowship. of course there is already some unity. like compared to other years, as i'm sur most of u are well aware of, our present-day didomi is surprisingly clique-free. our intergrade relations are very good. but as is consistent with most things, there is always room for improvement. it's like my 'vision' for didomi that i shared last friday. dunno how many of u remember wut i said so i will recap! i basically want to see didomi able to grow as one unified body, one in which nobody feels left out, one in which EVERY1 can go to ANY1 in their times of need or when they just need to talk something out. like there are undoubtedly still people that often feel left out, quite a lot i'd say. so ya, i feel that as leaders in dido we should be leading by example by reaching out to these people! so yes, 'one'

next part is the line which i have used as my title: 'time is ticking, t-time is tickin away' as a gr.12 person it is slowly becomming apparent to me that i am actually quite old! despite the fact that i may look like i'm in gr 9, i can't help but feel old sumtimes. so this leads to the question, what exactly have i done with my life so far? off the top of my head... not much! in my last year of high school i feel like i should be tryin hard to do so many things. one being bringing my friends at skool to God. this has always been a rly hard thing, cuz it's hard to just randomly bring up this somewhat sensitive topic. but this past weekend i was giving a HUGE oppurtunity to do so and i did! it started with my friend saying *sigh life is so empty. but ya, long story short i was able to share my faith with a lot of my friends and we were able to talk about a lot of controversial issues. this is the most serious talking i've done with my friends in that last 6 years! and i feel that oppurtunities like this are going to continue coming up, seeing as we have so many friggin spares! =P but ya, i kno a lot of ppl are currently trying to talk to their friends at skool bout God and stuff and my best encouragement thing is don't be discouraged! and don't try too hard to try to get ppl to do stuff, trust that God will work through u and that He'll be able to soften their hearts and make them willing to listen and learn more. ALSO, adding to this time is ticking thing, i also want to do a lot for dido this year! i hope this year's gonna be really gud, but i'm goin to make SURE that NEXT year will be even better. by working with the younger pplz and leading by example. i'm sure that didomi next year is going to be soo gud! can't wait to see what God has in plan for all these awesome ppl. especially u gr 11 pplz. but yes, make the most out of ur high skool life ppl. it duzn't last! nothing duz rly.. =P WOAH that's like my theme be:different. seeing as nothing (earthly) lasts, you should look towards God, the only thing that will be regardless of any of the circumstances..

k wow that was long.. hope u guys liked it!

-brian^^

bio makes me sick.. ><

o man that is one witty title! cuz i was sick today AND i did bio! daang.. lol

k ANYWAYS.. it has come to my attention that i have not sufficiently explained my title 'be:different' essentially being different is all about deciding to follow what God commands instead of following what the media tells us to do. it's about sacrificing earthly treasures and instead looking to eternal treasures in heaven. and i think this involves sacrificing more than just materials. it also involves devoting ur time and energy to God and allowing Him to control ur life. this is quite possibly one of the hardest parts of living a Christ-like life. it takes huge amounts of faith and courage to truly be different. a great example of this is when Jesus first called disciples to follow Him, without hesitation they left all that they had and followed Jesus. they left not only their belongings but also their friends, their families, their lives. they placed Jesus above all else in their lives and i think that everyone can learn a lesson from these first disciples.

lately, i've been struggling with this idea of putting God above everything else in my life, and i can honestly say that God is not first in my life right now. i can't even grasp the idea of leaving my comfortable lifestyle and all my friends, leaving it all to follow God. and sometimes that gives me a pretty crappy feeling, like ppl DO dissapoint and God doesn't yet i still put ppl in my life ahead of God. i forgot where i read this, but like some1 said how we should get the same feeling from spending time with God as we do when we spend time with some1 we're in love with. and how we should be like infatuated with God, and just look forward to every moment we spend with Him. ya, THAT is pretty intense.. so ya.. sumthin to think about?

um.. for devoes lately i've been reading the book of Mark. and a lot of wut i'm reading is like stories that i've learned and discussed about every since i was a kid. and it's just cool how i can still get stuff out of these stories even though i'm like reading about it for the w/eth time. so yes.. read ur bibles kids! lol i can say that cuz i'm in gr 12..

so that concludes yet another quality post, until next time..

-brian^^

first post!

hey every1! (dun actually how many ppl will read this.. so "every1" rly cud only be like.. 3 ppl ><)

hm.. dun rly kno wut i'm supposed to write so i guess i'll just get rite to the spiritual stuff. =P
so, lately i've actually been doing a lot better spiritually. after quite a long period of spirtual luke-warm-ness i'm starting to feel a lot better. through lots of encouragement and some brute-force determination i've actually began to consistently read the Bible and i've already been able to get a lot out of it. here's a verse that i've been finding rly useful:

Woe to those who go to great depths to hide their plans
from the Lord, who do their work in the darkness and think
"Who sees us? Who will know?"
Isaiah 29:15

but ya, besides doing well spiritually i've also been pretty happy lately in general. perhaps doing well spiritually is the cause for this? i'm not sure.. but regardless i'm enjoying this period of happiness and laughter.. hopefully it will last even through the countless school assignments i can smell coming soon. ><

hm.. that seems like a pretty gud first post to me.. more to come later!

-brian^^